all of what we know is about to end

Spent New Year's eve with some friends and my girlfriend. We talked for awhile over greek food and then deserts, including some sort of almond cookies and baklava. Following was a game of Apples to Apples, watching the ball drop on TV, a game of Texas Hold 'em (I lost seven bucks in quarters), and then I watched everyone play a game of BS and Spoons. Later we watched It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia for two episodes and then it was lights out on the party.

Woke in the morning, extremely tired. My girlfriend wouldn't let me get back to sleep either, since we'd be leaving soon enough (wound up being a good hour and a half later, mostly of my fault), and then Wendy's was lunch.

Tonight I watched the beginning half of the movie Space Jam. Reminds me of childhood, mainly the reason why I asked for it in the first place. Watched How I Met Your Mother with my girlfriend. And today, on the first day of 2010, I'm already realizing I hate my resolution. No soda for me is like... no stealing for a klepto, no drinking for an alcoholic, no porn for a sex addict. I drink soda almost daily, but it's become a drain on money at school and I needa start myself on a healthier diet, that means no soda. Sure I could limit myself to maybe one every other week, but believe me, the limitation could only last so long, so for now I'm swearing off the stuff, at least for the year.

And speaking of it being a new year, the past year, 2009 was a pretty damn good one. Graduated high school, started college, maintained my ongoing relationship of almost thirteen months, started new stories, got my first job and made some real money for once, met new friends, got my driver's license on the second attempt. There's probably a lot more I could name, but I'm not gunna.

So, in remembering the year that was 2009, and the decade that it completed, here's to hoping 2010 matches and goes beyond the experiences of 2009.

sinking to the bottom of my everything

My titles are gonna be song lyrics. So you've been forewarned. This is from the song "Into the Ocean" by Blue October.

Anyways, I was at the mall with my girlfriend the other day and we were going into stores which I cannot stand. Hollister, American Eagle, Abercrombie & Fitch... none of which are my style, nor will I buy anything from any of them. They're her style. 

So we were walking around in A&F and I kept seeing their posters on the walls, bare-chested guys and topless girls, their breasts pressed tightly against the guys so you couldn't see anything. Now, my girlfriend made me aware, which I'd also heard prior, that these ads are considered softcore pornography. And I started thinking about it. Why would a clothing store choose to display ads with scantily clad people? If they're trying to sell clothes, shouldn't the models be wearing their clothes? I thought it was a good question. I mean, sure the ads are provocative, so maybe teenagers will shop there because the ads are so sex-driven. They don't display the clothes they're trying to sell though, which seems to go against the point of being a clothing store.

Lately, I've been hard at work on writing songs, completed five over the past month or so. I wanna start a band in the summer with some friends. Hopefully this time it pans out. Style of music is yet to be decided.

School break has been good so far, but it's strange. You pine for break for the longest time, but then when it's about halfway over, you just want it to end. Maybe it's too long. I mean, I love being away from school, but I also miss school. College is different than high school. You get to know the people you live with, the people you have classes with. And then when you get back to school, you miss the friends you have at home. It's a confusing, complex arrangement of I-miss-them, but I'm-gonna-miss-them-too when I leave. 

I'm also working on a few novel ideas. I never know if any will be finished, but that's my goal in life, to write books. So I'm sure some will eventually get written.

Well, it's new year's eve, I'm going to a party tonight with some high-school friends and my girlfriend. My resolution: no soda for 2010. Now, this is gonna be one of the most impossible things for me to hold to considering how often I drink soda. But, it's another goal. With commitment I can succeed...I think.